3.03.2005
Good Day
I had a great evening last night when I came home from work. Lindsay and the kids were all napping so I got right to work preparing to pressure wash our house for painting. I also smoked my pipe a bit and worked on a book that I'm binding for some friends. Then I started pressure washing and got a bit done, then I grilled steaks for the family. After dinner I cleaned up the kitchen and did the dishes. I was really hyper and joyful the entire time from the moment I walked in the door. After cleaning up I rolled around on the floor with the kids and read books for another hour or so. Then it was bed time and we all read the bible together and I put the kids to bed.
It was a very productive and joyful evening or me, it felt like I was living the way I was made to live. I have been reading a lot of theology and reading all kinds of lists and articles and blogs all over the internet, so much that I often feel as if my head is going to start spinning. But the whole evening I kept thinking that I need to distance myself from all these abstractions about theology and such, and focus more on actually living for my King. I know it sounds so simpleton, but it is really quite difficult to just live a godly life. I'm not rejecting theology or anything of the sort, I just think I need to moderate my time and study. It's a much better use of my time (and much more challenging actually) to practice serving my wife, then to learn how to defend the doctrine of Definite Atonement.
I was more joyful last night than I have been in a while, and it was great to realize that it had nothing to do with me, it was all coming from God. I have always tried hard to live by 1 Th 4:11 "...and to aspire to live quietly, and to mind your own affairs, and to work with your hands, as we instructed you..." and find myself still trying to get to that point. Even my career goals are a reflection of trying to get to the point that that verse could be a reality in my life.
I want to be a vine that grows slowly and produces more and more fruit for its master every year. But its so easy for me to look down the road at what I want to be and try and get there tomorrow. Lord bless me with patience and joy as you guide me and teach me how to serve others. I need your help, for I only want to serve myself.
I had a great evening last night when I came home from work. Lindsay and the kids were all napping so I got right to work preparing to pressure wash our house for painting. I also smoked my pipe a bit and worked on a book that I'm binding for some friends. Then I started pressure washing and got a bit done, then I grilled steaks for the family. After dinner I cleaned up the kitchen and did the dishes. I was really hyper and joyful the entire time from the moment I walked in the door. After cleaning up I rolled around on the floor with the kids and read books for another hour or so. Then it was bed time and we all read the bible together and I put the kids to bed.
It was a very productive and joyful evening or me, it felt like I was living the way I was made to live. I have been reading a lot of theology and reading all kinds of lists and articles and blogs all over the internet, so much that I often feel as if my head is going to start spinning. But the whole evening I kept thinking that I need to distance myself from all these abstractions about theology and such, and focus more on actually living for my King. I know it sounds so simpleton, but it is really quite difficult to just live a godly life. I'm not rejecting theology or anything of the sort, I just think I need to moderate my time and study. It's a much better use of my time (and much more challenging actually) to practice serving my wife, then to learn how to defend the doctrine of Definite Atonement.
I was more joyful last night than I have been in a while, and it was great to realize that it had nothing to do with me, it was all coming from God. I have always tried hard to live by 1 Th 4:11 "...and to aspire to live quietly, and to mind your own affairs, and to work with your hands, as we instructed you..." and find myself still trying to get to that point. Even my career goals are a reflection of trying to get to the point that that verse could be a reality in my life.
I want to be a vine that grows slowly and produces more and more fruit for its master every year. But its so easy for me to look down the road at what I want to be and try and get there tomorrow. Lord bless me with patience and joy as you guide me and teach me how to serve others. I need your help, for I only want to serve myself.
